Friday, October 29, 2010

To Be: Introduced.

introduction:
I am Kristin. Bernadette. Smith. 21 years of age. Lover of art. Child of loving parents. Sister of seven. Music, art, creation is my goal.
Getting ready to serve an 18 month mission to Cuiaba, Brazil. I enter the MTC December 1st and I am pretty durn nervious.
Lived in Utah from the time I was born until I was 16, and then my dad was restationed at Lakenheath, England. There I met two of my closest friends, Carolyn and Kebra. There I fell in love with Italy and modern Art. moved back to the states july 2007 and began college at BYU-Idaho. There is no place like home.

fifteen interesting facts:
BAM! fact one: I love using "sound" words like, BAM! basically, I am a sound effects kind of person.
check! fact two: I have an obsession with writing lists. When I get overwhelemed, I write down everything I need to do in a check mark format, and will do this over and over again, in attempts to clear my head.
numero tres: speaking of spanish, I love to say things that wouldnt make sense in spanish. like. lavarse con pollo. _wash yourself with chicken_ I think its' hilarious.
fact four: I am hilarious.
five: I have a freckle on the palm of my hand, it just grew there one day. didnt know that was possible.
fact six: I have to have things organized, everything has its personal space and if someone re-arranges it, it reaally pisses me off. Antwon.
fact SEVEN: seven is my favorite number, something about perfection.
fact eight: if you look up my name in the dictionary, it says "Mary Poppins: perfect in every way."
FACT NINE: I have three sisters and four brothers, by birth. I've "adopted" others.
10: I am writing and illustrating a childrens' book. I have good feelings about this.
eleventh of the facts: Photography and design are my visual passions, music my audio.
fact 12: I compose my own music. piano, but Im trying to work my way to guitar and maybe viola. we'll see.
fact 13: I HATE being hot.
fact 14:I used to have a lisp that I outgrew somewhere between the end of 4th grade and 5th grade.
fact 15: most people dont believe me but I am actually really shy. As I child and teenager I hated how my timidness held me back, my fear of whatever kept me from doing things I really wanted to do, really wanted to say. I wanted to be remembered. SO I work really hard to FAKE YOU ALL OUT! :D must be doing a decent job. ;)
picture of recently.

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Day 1-Introduce, recent picture, 15 interesting facts
Day 2-Meaning behind your blog name
Day 3-Your first love
Day 4-Your parents
Day 5-Your siblings
Day 6-A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 7-Favorite movies
Day 8-A place you've traveled to
Day 9-A picture of your friends
Day 10-Something you're afraid of
Day 11-Favorite TV shows
Day 12-What you believe
Day 13-Goals
Day 14-A picture you love
Day 15-Bible verse
Day 16-Dream house
Day 17-Something you're looking forward to
Day 18-Something you regret
Day 19-Something you miss
Day 20-Nicknames
Day 21-Picture of yourself
Day 22-Favorite city
Day 23-Favorite vacation
Day 24-Something you've learned
Day 25-Put your iPod on shuffle, first 10 songs
Day 26-Picture of your family
Day 27-Pets
Day 28-Something that stresses you out
Day 29-3 Wishes
Day 30-a picture

Monday, October 25, 2010

not EMO. just thinking thoughts.

last night there was a storm brewing.
So I put on my warm coat and knit hat.
as I walked, I closed my eyes, spreading my arms to a cross, letting the wind rush and swirl around me, through me, push me.
I imagined I was on top of a very high mountain, or cliff edge.
falling.
the colours of the night rushing; cold, yet comforting. Deep tar infused in Plum, blackberry, wine, laced with a few twinkles of light reflecting off the cloud darkened late sky.
thats how I imagine dying.
but falling, you eventually hit the bottom, and that grace of the fall is swiftly gone when your body is pierced by tree and rock, bludgeoned.
how can death be beautiful?
The lady of Shallot? sleep unto death; drowning?
sometimes when I bathe I half inhale the warm waters;
calm.
would it hurt to drown? just breathe the wetness into my lungs
curious
but
suffication
nothing is more unpeaceful than to be unable to breathe.
panic.
fear.
tension.
I don't think I am afraid to die; for when I die.
it is fragile, but I am still strong.
I think about death, and how to cut the life blood's flow,
but Im not strangling myself.
just thinking thoughts.